Story of Roses

A young boy walk pass a garden and saw the roses that bloom beautifully....
Without hesitation he plucked 1 stalk and planned to bring it home with him...
The gardener walk in to the garden and asked the boy: "What are you doing, son?"
The Boy replied: "The Rose is gorgeous and attractive, I loved it and want to own it."
The gardener turn around and picked up a sprinkler to water the plants of roses.
The puzzled boy asked: "Why do you water the roses here?"
The gardener smiled and answered: "I loved the roses with all my heart and want them to grow and bloom in the best conditions."
Thinking about what the gardener said, he attempt to plant back the rose he just plucked...
But slowly the rose dies off as it is too late....... Life and love are both lost.....

Freedom

The Era has began!!!!!

The company has been set up and with WX and Kelvin hope this will be our milestone to success.... Although we face a lot of problems in the initial stage, I hope we will get the hang of it and manage our stuffs in a swift and decisive manner. Im carrying a curse and hope to spend more time on the company of ours, giving us a brighter and happier life style. Also not to forget strenghtening our friendship bonds.

Hope with support from my close friends and family Im able to go thru all tough stages and clear a path for myself. Without a loved 1 Im still able to do well....

Recently I have some internal struggle but hope I can clear my heart and stable it as peaceful as the water in a lake.

Freedom

Confused and losing confident.....

I been wondering these while, am I still the Jason Chua I believe to be? I lose faith in relationship, lose interest in my job, has dreams for business chances. But what can I do to be happy? Recently I been accompanying a few friends which has setback in love life, I do experience it as well but Im not as affected as them? People around me says that IM not serious thats why i can recover fast and carry my singlehood easily......

But is that true? I always put in my true feelings, but there are a lot of factors to consider as well, I dun wan to be selfish to people I care and afraid to hurt them or not met to their expectation thats why I do extreme decisions. I starting to doubt my own judgement.....

I don't even have the courage to tell the girl I love about my feelings. I understand what it means by seeing the person u love yet u cant express it......

Just staying by her side is never true, I can stay by her side and give her anything she hope for within my powers, but when a day came that she is with some1 else am I able to accept it???
But staying at her side, seeing her get hurt in R/S, and nothing much I can do to stop her from nights of drowning in alcohol.... Useless is the word to describe me.....

To fight a battle when you know that you have only 10% of winning, will u still fight on? To live with regrets or to die in honour? Hard to make a choice....

Freedom
Jason Chua

Once in a while

Too long nv write here le, now only have a thought in mind. Suddenly I miss her very much... Keep thinking of her nothing but her. Yet I cant see any reason to see her. I dun think she wanted to see me as well. Thinking of my life till now, it has been nothing nice. Hope I can do something special this year to make my life worth.

Been rotting for a few weeks le.....

Had been drinking for a while, still didn't know why I choose this ending. Will I ever walk out of this dark moment. I had always remind myself that to be confident is the most important citeria for my life to be successful, yet I can't pick myself up. It seems that she can live well without me. Will I need to still care for her? Or am I being busy body. Think she is able to find new guys arund her to shower her with care and concern. Yet she has time to go buy lunch to a guy hse. Do I mean nothing to her?

16th June 2008

Why do ppl love each other? Why do ppl keeps their feeling and not express it? Why do we step into relationship when we knows that 99% is to hurt the person or get hurt and strive for the 1% of success? Why is time able to do so many things like change a person's feelings, thinking or even character? Why cant I get enough time to rest and sort out my thoughts?

One more day to Off Day ENDURE!

No mood to change font and colour. Just to add today's entry. I went hm disappointed as I was hoping for a baked pasta at hm but in the end i have to slp with empty stomach. Nvm tmr night might be going KTV with a few colleague to vent our miseries. And to add on, one of my best friends complaint her name was not mention in the post where I got drenched. Her name is Angie haha... Happy now?

Continue of a busy period of time....

Very very very busy recently, from start of wrk at 11 till 10 plus not stop standing and talking. Throat very dry and today was unlucky cause a lot of mistakes made by my colleague and I have to spot it and resolve it. No time to really enjoy my lunch as well. During my tiring days, I still have to listen to my Darling moody voice after work, but luckily I went hm earlier to cook her a nice meal and coax her back to happy mood. Yet she keep asking me silly question like got heart beat feelngs and what happen in idol drama will happen n us a not. I feel that Im more practical person. More rational person. Anyway quite tired le going to rest for the next 2 days. Continue tmr...

Start of Sony Mid Year Promtion!~!~!~!

The starting of SONY's MYP means the beginning of a busy peroid and tiring work life. First plan a good birthday and also earn money for Car lessons. Then work hard t advance my career and source for money making chances. Then save enough for a good getaway. Need to relax after hard work. Planning a good steamboat outing as well ( Craving for steamboat ). Most important all this plans must have Darling with me. Hope I wun neglect her too much due to overwork...

1. When quarral with your bf, which is the most hated behaviour?
a. Smash thing
b. Cry none stop
c. Mention breakup
d. Eternal Silent

2. A guy will dislike which of the following most.
a. Check SMS
b. Check Computer History file.
c. Check reciepts usage.
d. Keep calling whole day.

3. Which behaviour is most hated when going out with bf's friends.
a. No image, too bitchy.
b. A lot of comments nt in favour with majority.
c. Criticise on your bf's negative points
d. Show a unhappy face

4. Which of the following is the most unacceptable for third party?
a. Same sex
b. Best friend
c. Rich old man
d. A married man.

5. Which of the ocupation is most wanted of the guys' gf?
a. Air Stewardess
b. Teacher
c. Host
d. Model

6. Which kind of nail polish will a guy hope for gf to wear?
a. Pink and transparent type.
b. Cute with flowery patterns.
c. Crystal tyoe.
d. Diamonds and rudy type.

7. Guys will hate which the most?
a. Suspicious
b. Money spender
c. Lazy
d. Stubborn

Dangerous Estate!!!

Today went to Malaysia eat and buy some magazine for Darling. After that went to clementi to find Kelvin chat a while before heading home. I was shocked when I reach my house void deck. There was police cars and I saw a White honda fit which windscreen was smashed by a flower pot ( I presume it was thrown down from high floor ). It happen for the second time. Think must be on alert when Im going out le... Also recently I have friends planning to get married when they just started being together for 2 days. Giving me pressure on should I bring my life to another stage... Also planning to get a car license so I can go out more freely at night. So many things to accomplish and yet so little time and money. Work place also going to be very busy. Hope I can spend more time with my loved ones. Birthday is also round the corner still have no ideas on what to do or how to celebrate.

~Semi-Devil~Demi-God~

First of all today is my off day and I woke up coughing till I feel like dying... Yet I told myself to bring darling to a movie show today. We went to the movie at West Mall and then go seperate ways, she went to meet Qi and Esther (the fierce wife) and I went to JEC to meet my buddies, Kelvin and Robert. Had my hair cut finally and feel more relax resting at hm.

Have a thought of why ppl get into relationship and marriage? Everything in this world will have a ending... I have an idea of getting settle down but is she ready? Can she manage to take care of herself if I wasn't there?

Scenerio 1.
If you found out ur partner went out clubbing and only come back in the morning how will u react and do?

Caught in the heaviest Rain ever!

That idoit Kelvin ask me out at 1am and went to a ulu place. We had a few drinks and chat about anything under the moon. Suddenly the rain came ouring down and we have to run in the rain to get to a void deck, under the heavy rain and strong wind gusting on me, I fell sick today, terribiy. Anyway I manage to spend some time alone at home resting and thinking of what am I to archieve this coming future. I must not wish for things to happen, I must be able to archieve my hopes and dreams by working hard and give ppl ard me with hopes.....

Off day...

Beginning of this blog......

I will lke to introduce this new blog. Have been very busy with work and neglecting my gf. Having strong headache as well. Like to share what ever available to me to the world.