Its been a while

Recently I been encountering more setbacks and more stress than the past 2 years. Actually I didn't have a better life during the 2 years is just that I choose to run away from my issues and choose not to have myself. Actually I have nv been a good enough boyfriend. I didn't accept the fact that I lost her. I didn't wanna move on. I dun believe others will be true to me. I heard this saying. '如果有犹豫，就是有问题。给予希望如果不能兑现还不是失望。。。‘

The new feelings is just curiosity or is it my heart is still alive? I do like her. She is great. But am I good enough? 对不起 。