Lost and Stress

Life is always unexpected... Human is never satisfy.... Greed will lead to losing what u have now, but without greed u won't improve your lifestyle. Loving a person can be happiness but too much will lead to possessive.... jealousy and even hatred..... Not having will want more, but once u achieve whatever target you will be blinded and forget what is important to you. Why must there be pros and cons, love and hate, rich and poor. Happy and sadness, having and losing....

This is for u darling.

Darling, recently I been thinking and trying very hard to find a permanent job and work our future together. Been wanting to travel a few countries with u. I believe we can have a bright future. I hope to get a camera and travel some place we never been to and take pictures of us as memories. I love u, I will be missing u these few days. Gd night.

Freedom

Can't seem to fall asleep....

Can't help to keep thinking about Darling's problem..... keep feeling is my fault...... Kinda confused and scared.... First time I feel fear to lose someone important to my life. ( Not my other fear ) Dunno is she asleep or dun wanna talk to me to make me worried.

I love u and only u.......

Hope I'm fine for work tomorrow. My wish is to be with u always.

I have millions of words in my heart just dunno how to type it out.......

Freedom

1st day at Asus in Northpoint

Quite a boring day, maybe due to first day.... But Quite fun the ppl there. Worked from 11 to 9 but sold only 1pc of netbook some more isn't from my company so no comms haix. darling came over to find me i was surprised and happy. But ltr she confessed something. I was not angry but she is greatly affected. I wish i could do something to cool her down but I did all I can but nothing seems to help her at all. Haixxxxxxxx hope she will be better tommorrow......


Freedom

Somebody complain I nv blog le so these are for her......

If i has to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say "I LOVE YOU, My Love."

As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be. But I can't bear to let you go.....

If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back they never ask you to.

Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it.

Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Story of Roses

A young boy walk pass a garden and saw the roses that bloom beautifully....
Without hesitation he plucked 1 stalk and planned to bring it home with him...
The gardener walk in to the garden and asked the boy: "What are you doing, son?"
The Boy replied: "The Rose is gorgeous and attractive, I loved it and want to own it."
The gardener turn around and picked up a sprinkler to water the plants of roses.
The puzzled boy asked: "Why do you water the roses here?"
The gardener smiled and answered: "I loved the roses with all my heart and want them to grow and bloom in the best conditions."
Thinking about what the gardener said, he attempt to plant back the rose he just plucked...
But slowly the rose dies off as it is too late....... Life and love are both lost.....

Freedom

The Era has began!!!!!

The company has been set up and with WX and Kelvin hope this will be our milestone to success.... Although we face a lot of problems in the initial stage, I hope we will get the hang of it and manage our stuffs in a swift and decisive manner. Im carrying a curse and hope to spend more time on the company of ours, giving us a brighter and happier life style. Also not to forget strenghtening our friendship bonds.

Hope with support from my close friends and family Im able to go thru all tough stages and clear a path for myself. Without a loved 1 Im still able to do well....

Recently I have some internal struggle but hope I can clear my heart and stable it as peaceful as the water in a lake.

Freedom

Confused and losing confident.....

I been wondering these while, am I still the Jason Chua I believe to be? I lose faith in relationship, lose interest in my job, has dreams for business chances. But what can I do to be happy? Recently I been accompanying a few friends which has setback in love life, I do experience it as well but Im not as affected as them? People around me says that IM not serious thats why i can recover fast and carry my singlehood easily......

But is that true? I always put in my true feelings, but there are a lot of factors to consider as well, I dun wan to be selfish to people I care and afraid to hurt them or not met to their expectation thats why I do extreme decisions. I starting to doubt my own judgement.....

I don't even have the courage to tell the girl I love about my feelings. I understand what it means by seeing the person u love yet u cant express it......

Just staying by her side is never true, I can stay by her side and give her anything she hope for within my powers, but when a day came that she is with some1 else am I able to accept it???
But staying at her side, seeing her get hurt in R/S, and nothing much I can do to stop her from nights of drowning in alcohol.... Useless is the word to describe me.....

To fight a battle when you know that you have only 10% of winning, will u still fight on? To live with regrets or to die in honour? Hard to make a choice....

Freedom
Jason Chua

Once in a while

Too long nv write here le, now only have a thought in mind. Suddenly I miss her very much... Keep thinking of her nothing but her. Yet I cant see any reason to see her. I dun think she wanted to see me as well. Thinking of my life till now, it has been nothing nice. Hope I can do something special this year to make my life worth.