I been wondering these while, am I still the Jason Chua I believe to be? I lose faith in relationship, lose interest in my job, has dreams for business chances. But what can I do to be happy? Recently I been accompanying a few friends which has setback in love life, I do experience it as well but Im not as affected as them? People around me says that IM not serious thats why i can recover fast and carry my singlehood easily......
But is that true? I always put in my true feelings, but there are a lot of factors to consider as well, I dun wan to be selfish to people I care and afraid to hurt them or not met to their expectation thats why I do extreme decisions. I starting to doubt my own judgement.....
I don't even have the courage to tell the girl I love about my feelings. I understand what it means by seeing the person u love yet u cant express it......
Just staying by her side is never true, I can stay by her side and give her anything she hope for within my powers, but when a day came that she is with some1 else am I able to accept it???
But staying at her side, seeing her get hurt in R/S, and nothing much I can do to stop her from nights of drowning in alcohol.... Useless is the word to describe me.....
To fight a battle when you know that you have only 10% of winning, will u still fight on? To live with regrets or to die in honour? Hard to make a choice....
Freedom
Jason Chua
