Gemini

Someone told me that Geminis are indecisive and fall in love easily. Recently I also understand that no matter how moody I get, is not just about me. People who cared around me also will be affected. Is it so hard to find a good partner to build a relationship?

I never believe in destiny or fate, is our freedom to choose what we want. Recently I met a cute girl and had a chat with her over lunch. All seems well but I realize is easy to start a relationship but now my brain will hold me back knowing to attempt anything. 

I missed her smile, miss the times we spend together at the beach, the supermarket  shopping, watching tv.... Miss her saying she need attention and crying over the touching scene on tv drama. I miss the seats we took for movies and what spicy food u loved......
Love is never about how good looking your partner is, the inner beauty is most important, cause it will last and accompany u all the way. She has everything I feel is her good qualities,yet I can never qualifies as her bf......

Spending time together will eventually strengthen the bond, but I always have this issue of staying in the friend zone or move forward. I still remember we once said if anything happen in a bad way we won't be friends again. I am not in position to love anyone currently. 

Sometimes I just want a peaceful life,a girl who I can trust, love and spend time with. Is my ego that want to be more successful, therefore causing my own misery.

我總是想太多， but this time I really have to hope of getting back together with you..... I feel I have admire another person. She has qualities I like as we'll. although us till hold the most important position in my heart but gradually without any effort to stay together, eventually someone will take that position. Loving someone who I can't be with is never easy. Yet I can do nothing abt it now. Maybe I need some time alone.

My freedom to choose is to lead my  life with earning for a living and waiting for a wonderful girl to spend time with and not have issue of  being cheater and trust.....