After a year of struggle and heavy feelings, today I went to the specialist with my Dad. The doctor all seems well and he can be discharged. Still the thoughts of him having to take the medicine for life gave me a sharp pain that instance.
The time frame I gave myself is almost up. Is about time for me to plan more on my 2nd career. Since all is lost, I should not keep holding to the past. Chances will not always be there for me. Enjoying a cup of peppermint tea and brainstorming my path.
Firstly I must lead a healthier life , lesser alcohol and tobacco. More exercise and healthy diet.
Recalling my life, I need to focus more and let her stay at the back of my mind and the bottom of my heart. Maybe when I'm ready for her she would have found another suitable one.
Start to wonder what she like about me before? I don't even know what I love about her. We started as friends who share thoughts, hang out together. Eventually being together I do whatever I can to give her assurance. I liked her angelic smile and character that always care for others before herself. Her simplicity is so amazing, is like her positivity can be transferred into my soul.....
At times when we have discussion her maturity even surprise me more. All this are history and can never return to me.
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