-= J 。C‘s 思维 =-

Mood out of no where

2011-06-13T09:35:00.000-07:00

My mood has been down for few days, the worse thing is I dunno wat affected my mood. There are few incidents that happen around me but I has always control my emotion and thoughts well.

Something is wrong with me yet I can't explain.

结局

2010-09-22T11:03:00.001-07:00

演唱/张克帆
刹那之间失去爱
怎能不觉得意外
居然是你是你给我伤害
久久也无法释怀
以为爱情本无害
没有防备一头栽
如果是我是我做得太坏
至少你也让我明白
我把记忆翻出来
脑子里一片空白
对错真假都随你更改
你曾说承诺如果给不起
不是真心而是更珍惜
你对爱的定义
曾让我如此着迷
你又说感情不能太小心
没有不甘心
得失不在手里
如今不发一言离去
这才明白
你想暗示的结局

我以为

2010-09-03T15:05:00.000-07:00

你曾说过不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不需靠宽容就能够解脱

我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你已对他不在期待
不纵容他再给你伤害

我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
真心陪在你左右你不怕一切的错
也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心已不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为

我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
真心陪在你左右你不怕一切的错
也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁
我以为我够坚强却一天天的失望
少给我一点希望希望就不是奢望

We dare to dream

2010-08-31T15:31:00.000-07:00

这世界上有很多事不是需不需要
而是因不因该去做

我们常常梦想和希望
但没有尽全力争取
而会找一堆借口来逃避

信念能让你坚持梦想
信心能让你拥有希望

生命不会每天开心，快乐
如何面对自己才能把不开心减底
接受才能把不愉快留在过去。

With Love this wrote....

2010-07-16T16:02:00.000-07:00

To the world you might be a normal girl
To me you are everything.
To the world anyone is dispensable
To me you are indispensable
I want nothing in this world except you to be by my side
I hope to be with you as times goes by
I wonder at times whether you are happier before or after knowing me
But now I will work hard for you to become the happiest girl
Even if it means to sacrifice anything in my possession
I can dream of being a millionaire or forever being
But I won't be happy without you.
I can do anything to make you happy
Even if it means to giving up anyone or anything...

痛苦的愛情

2010-06-07T10:37:00.000-07:00

女人和高根鞋。

高根鞋穿就了很痛

很辛苦。

當脫下的那一刻

就會有輕鬆和舒服的感覺。

如果背負沒有結果的愛情

不適合的愛情

是不是該脫下。不該免強。。。

P。S：漂亮耀眼的服裝和首飾能把目光吸引在女人的身上。
幸福美滿的愛情加真心能讓女人散發滋潤的光芒。。。

错觉

2010-06-07T10:05:00.000-07:00

愛情是一種錯覺，

是基因在作祟，

是荷爾蒙在搞鬼，

愛情

就九十九分都是假的吧

只有一分

是真實的。

“是甚麼？”

《《痛》》

痛是真實的

可笑的是你身上沒有傷口

你不會流血。

可是這種痛會扎扎實實的咬著你不放。

直到把你的心咬下來

你才能擺脫這種痛。

沒有心

就不會痛

再忍一下

就不痛了。。。

P。S：這世界沒有追不到的愛情，
只有不復出真心的人。
無論挫折有多大，
痛苦有多深。

帶著勇氣和真心去面對愛情。
面對才能放下，
真心才能得到。

時間是無價的。

两个人。

2010-06-04T13:18:00.000-07:00

现代人对爱情的观念到底是什么？

有人说过，男人选择一百个对象或者一千个。
但他成功找到真爱的机率只有百分之一，千分之一。
女人得到爱情的机率永远可以是二分之一。

爱情的记忆很难忘，也很珍贵。当你学会珍惜，就能永恒。
为什么要因为一时的贪念或诱惑，伤害对你真心的那一个。
为什么为了一时志气，后悔过日子。

幸运的人不多，不一定让你遇见真爱。
上帝眷顾的人很少，能不能让你再次碰到对的人，看你信不信缘分。

听过一手歌：如果没有心就不会难过。但我觉得没了心，我就不会有心跳加数的爱情。

P。S：我很幸运找到了我的ANGEL。我没有信仰和宗教，但我相信人生有不同的选择会导致不同的后果。人生会到达个终点在那之前我会珍惜你。

铭记在心

2010-05-24T18:23:00.000-07:00

躲避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难受
孤单不一定不快了
得到不一定能长久
失去不一定不再有
传身不一定最软弱
别急着说别无选择
别以为世上只有对与错
许多事情的答案不是只有一个
所以我们永远有路可以走
你能找个理由难过
也一定能找到快乐
懂得放心的人，找到轻松
懂得遗忘的人，找到自由
懂得关怀的人，找到朋友

Devil

2010-05-24T07:53:00.001-07:00

爱情是撒旦送来的礼物，
拆开之后你的人生
就陷入万劫不不负。

当你好不容易鼓起勇气，付出真心的时候。
......
再一次让你陷入失望的绝境。

Giving & recieving. Sharing & loving.

2010-05-24T06:39:00.000-07:00

因为爱所以容忍，
因为爱所以接受，
因为爱所以付出，
因为爱所以分享，
因为爱所以爱。

心让我感觉幸福快乐，伤心流泪。
心让我了解什么是妒嫉，恨，爱和欲望。

我们身边常常会有很多发生在朋友身上的故事，
有些故事开心一起分享，有些伤心一起承担。

We must cherish what we have, work for what we want.

We have the freedom to choose our life pathway with justice in our mind and it will lead to our each destiny.......

~ 爱。情～

2010-04-28T09:25:00.000-07:00

有人说面包比爱情还要重要，
也有说有情饮水饱。
到底是这样的说法呢？

见仁见智。

不同人有不同的看法，
不同人有不同的经历，
不同人有不同的环境，
也将会有不同的理念。

天长地久，曾经拥有。
一见钟情，细水长流。
体贴温柔，细心关爱。

人因时间成长，也因时间改变。
时间能让人遗忘。
也能让感情加深。

暧昧的感觉很甜蜜

恋爱的时候很浪漫

失恋的感受很痛心

承诺的瞬间很幸福

婚姻的日子很艰难

但这一切都是值得

P 。S：幸福之一，努力寻找爱情，珍惜拥有的情人，信赖关心你的恋人，
尊重和你一起承诺的伴侣。

～友。情～

2010-04-27T10:39:00.000-07:00

人生能有多少朋友。。。
一生能有多少知己。。。

基本，
朋友永远只能做。。。朋友

初级，
朋友也能演变为。。。知己

有缘，
朋友将会成为。。。情人

误会，
朋友可能造就一个。。。敌人

我们的选择和理念会成就不同的结果。
一个人的思维和周围的音响都可能改变后果。
你能控制吗？

信任，义气，坦诚和谅解。。。是不可缺少。
怀疑，嫉妒，利益和不屑。。。是不可拥有。

P。S：幸福之一，身边有知心知己和信赖好友。

Lost and Stress

2009-11-10T12:38:00.000-08:00

Life is always unexpected... Human is never satisfy.... Greed will lead to losing what u have now, but without greed u won't improve your lifestyle. Loving a person can be happiness but too much will lead to possessive.... jealousy and even hatred..... Not having will want more, but once u achieve whatever target you will be blinded and forget what is important to you. Why must there be pros and cons, love and hate, rich and poor. Happy and sadness, having and losing....

This is for u darling.

2009-08-07T08:44:00.000-07:00

Darling, recently I been thinking and trying very hard to find a permanent job and work our future together. Been wanting to travel a few countries with u. I believe we can have a bright future. I hope to get a camera and travel some place we never been to and take pictures of us as memories. I love u, I will be missing u these few days. Gd night.

Freedom

Can't seem to fall asleep....

2009-07-29T12:40:00.001-07:00

Can't help to keep thinking about Darling's problem..... keep feeling is my fault...... Kinda confused and scared.... First time I feel fear to lose someone important to my life. ( Not my other fear ) Dunno is she asleep or dun wanna talk to me to make me worried.

I love u and only u.......

Hope I'm fine for work tomorrow. My wish is to be with u always.

I have millions of words in my heart just dunno how to type it out.......

Freedom

1st day at Asus in Northpoint

2009-07-29T08:52:00.000-07:00

Quite a boring day, maybe due to first day.... But Quite fun the ppl there. Worked from 11 to 9 but sold only 1pc of netbook some more isn't from my company so no comms haix. darling came over to find me i was surprised and happy. But ltr she confessed something. I was not angry but she is greatly affected. I wish i could do something to cool her down but I did all I can but nothing seems to help her at all. Haixxxxxxxx hope she will be better tommorrow......

Freedom

Somebody complain I nv blog le so these are for her......

2009-07-24T11:38:00.001-07:00

If i has to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say "I LOVE YOU, My Love."

As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be. But I can't bear to let you go.....

If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back they never ask you to.

Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it.

Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Story of Roses

2009-05-07T10:45:00.000-07:00

A young boy walk pass a garden and saw the roses that bloom beautifully....
Without hesitation he plucked 1 stalk and planned to bring it home with him...
The gardener walk in to the garden and asked the boy: "What are you doing, son?"
The Boy replied: "The Rose is gorgeous and attractive, I loved it and want to own it."
The gardener turn around and picked up a sprinkler to water the plants of roses.
The puzzled boy asked: "Why do you water the roses here?"
The gardener smiled and answered: "I loved the roses with all my heart and want them to grow and bloom in the best conditions."
Thinking about what the gardener said, he attempt to plant back the rose he just plucked...
But slowly the rose dies off as it is too late....... Life and love are both lost.....

Freedom

The Era has began!!!!!

2009-04-27T21:46:00.000-07:00

The company has been set up and with WX and Kelvin hope this will be our milestone to success.... Although we face a lot of problems in the initial stage, I hope we will get the hang of it and manage our stuffs in a swift and decisive manner. Im carrying a curse and hope to spend more time on the company of ours, giving us a brighter and happier life style. Also not to forget strenghtening our friendship bonds.

Hope with support from my close friends and family Im able to go thru all tough stages and clear a path for myself. Without a loved 1 Im still able to do well....

Recently I have some internal struggle but hope I can clear my heart and stable it as peaceful as the water in a lake.

Freedom

Confused and losing confident.....

2009-03-09T17:48:00.000-07:00

I been wondering these while, am I still the Jason Chua I believe to be? I lose faith in relationship, lose interest in my job, has dreams for business chances. But what can I do to be happy? Recently I been accompanying a few friends which has setback in love life, I do experience it as well but Im not as affected as them? People around me says that IM not serious thats why i can recover fast and carry my singlehood easily......

But is that true? I always put in my true feelings, but there are a lot of factors to consider as well, I dun wan to be selfish to people I care and afraid to hurt them or not met to their expectation thats why I do extreme decisions. I starting to doubt my own judgement.....

I don't even have the courage to tell the girl I love about my feelings. I understand what it means by seeing the person u love yet u cant express it......

Just staying by her side is never true, I can stay by her side and give her anything she hope for within my powers, but when a day came that she is with some1 else am I able to accept it???
But staying at her side, seeing her get hurt in R/S, and nothing much I can do to stop her from nights of drowning in alcohol.... Useless is the word to describe me.....

To fight a battle when you know that you have only 10% of winning, will u still fight on? To live with regrets or to die in honour? Hard to make a choice....

Freedom
Jason Chua

Once in a while

2009-01-11T07:32:00.001-08:00

Too long nv write here le, now only have a thought in mind. Suddenly I miss her very much... Keep thinking of her nothing but her. Yet I cant see any reason to see her. I dun think she wanted to see me as well. Thinking of my life till now, it has been nothing nice. Hope I can do something special this year to make my life worth.

Been rotting for a few weeks le.....

2008-10-16T08:22:00.000-07:00

Had been drinking for a while, still didn't know why I choose this ending. Will I ever walk out of this dark moment. I had always remind myself that to be confident is the most important citeria for my life to be successful, yet I can't pick myself up. It seems that she can live well without me. Will I need to still care for her? Or am I being busy body. Think she is able to find new guys arund her to shower her with care and concern. Yet she has time to go buy lunch to a guy hse. Do I mean nothing to her?

16th June 2008

2008-06-25T11:41:00.000-07:00

Why do ppl love each other? Why do ppl keeps their feeling and not express it? Why do we step into relationship when we knows that 99% is to hurt the person or get hurt and strive for the 1% of success? Why is time able to do so many things like change a person's feelings, thinking or even character? Why cant I get enough time to rest and sort out my thoughts?

One more day to Off Day ENDURE!

2008-05-18T07:40:00.000-07:00

No mood to change font and colour. Just to add today's entry. I went hm disappointed as I was hoping for a baked pasta at hm but in the end i have to slp with empty stomach. Nvm tmr night might be going KTV with a few colleague to vent our miseries. And to add on, one of my best friends complaint her name was not mention in the post where I got drenched. Her name is Angie haha... Happy now?

Continue of a busy period of time....

2008-05-17T10:06:00.000-07:00

Very very very busy recently, from start of wrk at 11 till 10 plus not stop standing and talking. Throat very dry and today was unlucky cause a lot of mistakes made by my colleague and I have to spot it and resolve it. No time to really enjoy my lunch as well. During my tiring days, I still have to listen to my Darling moody voice after work, but luckily I went hm earlier to cook her a nice meal and coax her back to happy mood. Yet she keep asking me silly question like got heart beat feelngs and what happen in idol drama will happen n us a not. I feel that Im more practical person. More rational person. Anyway quite tired le going to rest for the next 2 days. Continue tmr...

Start of Sony Mid Year Promtion!~!~!~!

2008-05-16T10:46:00.001-07:00

The starting of SONY's MYP means the beginning of a busy peroid and tiring work life. First plan a good birthday and also earn money for Car lessons. Then work hard t advance my career and source for money making chances. Then save enough for a good getaway. Need to relax after hard work. Planning a good steamboat outing as well ( Craving for steamboat ). Most important all this plans must have Darling with me. Hope I wun neglect her too much due to overwork...

2008-05-14T13:16:00.000-07:00

1. When quarral with your bf, which is the most hated behaviour?
a. Smash thing
b. Cry none stop
c. Mention breakup
d. Eternal Silent

2. A guy will dislike which of the following most.
a. Check SMS
b. Check Computer History file.
c. Check reciepts usage.
d. Keep calling whole day.

3. Which behaviour is most hated when going out with bf's friends.
a. No image, too bitchy.
b. A lot of comments nt in favour with majority.
c. Criticise on your bf's negative points
d. Show a unhappy face

4. Which of the following is the most unacceptable for third party?
a. Same sex
b. Best friend
c. Rich old man
d. A married man.

5. Which of the ocupation is most wanted of the guys' gf?
a. Air Stewardess
b. Teacher
c. Host
d. Model

6. Which kind of nail polish will a guy hope for gf to wear?
a. Pink and transparent type.
b. Cute with flowery patterns.
c. Crystal tyoe.
d. Diamonds and rudy type.

7. Guys will hate which the most?
a. Suspicious
b. Money spender
c. Lazy
d. Stubborn

Dangerous Estate!!!

2008-05-14T09:30:00.001-07:00

Today went to Malaysia eat and buy some magazine for Darling. After that went to clementi to find Kelvin chat a while before heading home. I was shocked when I reach my house void deck. There was police cars and I saw a White honda fit which windscreen was smashed by a flower pot ( I presume it was thrown down from high floor ). It happen for the second time. Think must be on alert when Im going out le... Also recently I have friends planning to get married when they just started being together for 2 days. Giving me pressure on should I bring my life to another stage... Also planning to get a car license so I can go out more freely at night. So many things to accomplish and yet so little time and money. Work place also going to be very busy. Hope I can spend more time with my loved ones. Birthday is also round the corner still have no ideas on what to do or how to celebrate.

~Semi-Devil~Demi-God~

2008-05-12T07:10:00.000-07:00

First of all today is my off day and I woke up coughing till I feel like dying... Yet I told myself to bring darling to a movie show today. We went to the movie at West Mall and then go seperate ways, she went to meet Qi and Esther (the fierce wife) and I went to JEC to meet my buddies, Kelvin and Robert. Had my hair cut finally and feel more relax resting at hm.

Have a thought of why ppl get into relationship and marriage? Everything in this world will have a ending... I have an idea of getting settle down but is she ready? Can she manage to take care of herself if I wasn't there?

Scenerio 1.
If you found out ur partner went out clubbing and only come back in the morning how will u react and do?

Caught in the heaviest Rain ever!

2008-05-11T05:27:00.000-07:00

That idoit Kelvin ask me out at 1am and went to a ulu place. We had a few drinks and chat about anything under the moon. Suddenly the rain came ouring down and we have to run in the rain to get to a void deck, under the heavy rain and strong wind gusting on me, I fell sick today, terribiy. Anyway I manage to spend some time alone at home resting and thinking of what am I to archieve this coming future. I must not wish for things to happen, I must be able to archieve my hopes and dreams by working hard and give ppl ard me with hopes.....

Off day...

2008-05-08T07:58:00.000-07:00

Beginning of this blog......

I will lke to introduce this new blog. Have been very busy with work and neglecting my gf. Having strong headache as well. Like to share what ever available to me to the world.